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FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKKK.

I had an orthopaedic physio appointment tomorrow. Now I don't because she's off sick. This is the uber important appointment that I need to have before they put me on the 12 week waiting list for the arthroscopy. It's going to be weeks away now.

God damn it.

I am fucking livid.

Someone please give me lots of money so I can have this done privately and don't have to deal with this shit?

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Today is a BAD day. Lots of people are having bad things happen.

So I refuse to have any part in it. Indulgent time wasting ftw.

Unfortunately, the last entry was not an April fool's, but if you want one here you go:

I've won the lottery and was going to spend it on having private surgery but then it turned out my pain is totally gone so I guess I've healed and now I'm going to spend all that money on a trip around the world and to build my own eco-home and shit. I am so happy with my life.

Joke's on you.

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Gah. I am trying to write a script for calling up the orthopaedic appointments person so that I sound angry enough for them to arrange an emergency appointment, and it just sounds rubbish. Anyone have any suggestions? I might just wing it ..

They're not fucking picking up anyway. I'll try again later.

Oh, and the cherry is that I'm in a fucking shitload of pain today. Maybe it's stress. But yeah I can barely walk a few steps, so whoopdidoo.

My mother said she was telling my grandfather how proud she is that I've managed to keep it together. I'm not sure what she means by that, because what the hell else would I do? I can't afford to fall apart, nobody will pick up the pieces. I might as well totally squash myself. It's either this or taking all my pills at once, and refusing to acknowledge reality is an effective way to distract oneself from that particular concept.

Etc.