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Jun. 23rd, 2007 02:30 amI have been faffing around for several hours, not really wanting to go to sleep. I'm now watching Dracula. Earlier I made business cards and found a job to apply for being a research assistant at the marine biological lab in Woods Hole (just need to write the covering letter now).
I went to Oxford. I stayed a few days longer than I'd originally intended, but it was fun to be fed and not have to worry about money for a little while, as well as seeing people I haven't seen in much too long. I didn't spend much time in the centre of town and still got heebiejeebies before going in a pub, but I felt mostly fine. I was worried that there'd be a chance encounter whereby people would be absurdly superficially friendly, I wouldn't reciprocate, and then I'd be judged against for being an irrational hostile monkey and it would yet again be transferred to my responsibility. It's funny how that happens. But it didn't happen. Yay.
Instead I had several picnics, a delightful barbecue, annoyed Tef an awful lot, finished my Mao book, some Hemingway, some Sylvia Plath and some Seamus Heaney, and went to some lovely pubs and fields and parks, and bought some excellent books (Working with the Environment which is all about all the organisations I should contact to get a job, a book of essays about feminism, population and environment, and a book on ecotoxicology. And I met up with 4 old school friends all together for the first time in 6 years. And managed to talk to another one properly possibly for the first time ever due to some semblance of confidence having sprouted in the last couple of years. Good good.
I said I'd meet my parents for breakfast tomorrow so I suppose I'd better get to sleep.
I went to Oxford. I stayed a few days longer than I'd originally intended, but it was fun to be fed and not have to worry about money for a little while, as well as seeing people I haven't seen in much too long. I didn't spend much time in the centre of town and still got heebiejeebies before going in a pub, but I felt mostly fine. I was worried that there'd be a chance encounter whereby people would be absurdly superficially friendly, I wouldn't reciprocate, and then I'd be judged against for being an irrational hostile monkey and it would yet again be transferred to my responsibility. It's funny how that happens. But it didn't happen. Yay.
Instead I had several picnics, a delightful barbecue, annoyed Tef an awful lot, finished my Mao book, some Hemingway, some Sylvia Plath and some Seamus Heaney, and went to some lovely pubs and fields and parks, and bought some excellent books (Working with the Environment which is all about all the organisations I should contact to get a job, a book of essays about feminism, population and environment, and a book on ecotoxicology. And I met up with 4 old school friends all together for the first time in 6 years. And managed to talk to another one properly possibly for the first time ever due to some semblance of confidence having sprouted in the last couple of years. Good good.
I said I'd meet my parents for breakfast tomorrow so I suppose I'd better get to sleep.